Who am I now?
I’ve rewritten and updated this section so many times wondering what is relevant about me to share here. Everybody has a some sort of transformational and personal growth story and mine is no different. It seems us humans like to connect and relate through story. So here it is

In short I have transformed my life from being a depressed, confused and stressed being of wrongness, to an explorer of creativity, lightness and expansive possibilities. At age 11 I tried to take my own life, but thank goodness I did a bad job at it. I contemplated suicide several times in my teens up until early 30s.  But now I have tools, options and choices to navigate my way through those moments. Being present with what was and what is without judgement is the ongoing journey of mastery for all of us and it is something I am very passionate about doing.

I managed to change my perspective in life from things being NOT possible for me to anything IS possible for me. I found that life can get better (and better and better) and that choice is certainly available. A lighter way of living IS accessible when we’re ready to choose it and receive it. ​
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Intergenerational Trauma
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I was a quiet, shy, obedient young girl who was not willing to own and claim my voice in the world. I was coasting on mediocre - not sticking out too much, but doing well enough in life to keep out of trouble. Blending into the background was my coping strategy in life.

'Freeze and fawn' was my modus operandi created from a collection of handed down trauma experiences as a child. My parents were born in HK and my paternal grandfather was sold out as his own family were so poor. He grew up becoming bitter, abusive and turned to the bottle. My maternal grandmother was put into a mental asylum, leaving my mother to 'mother' her siblings at tender age of 16, whilst her father was away a lot working as a chef out at sea. So from a systemic constellations point of view, both my lines had experienced interruptions in the flow of love and those living were compensating for that to try and re-balance the system.  My strategy was to become super obedient, fast and keep everything tidy to win my parents approval. It was never enough.

Was functioning from fawn working for me as a young adult? Well, it did to a certain extent. I did quite well in my so called career in the corporate world being super efficient at delivering the tasks at hand.  I had a long term relationship, owned a London apartment, and had become a Business Analyst. Fancy.

It was in 2007 when the universe delivered a couple of catalytic events for me that changed the course of my life. This came in the form of my then partner announcing that he was sexually confused and that he had contracted HIV. Wedge number one. Wedge number two came the day after. I was informed by my family that our aunt had committed suicide. These events were enough to create a flip my world upside down and prompted me to question everything in my life and I mean EVERYTHING. The cracks I had covered up from my childhood were ready to be seen, as well as uncovering the intergenerational trauma. I had to tear up my life script of beliefs I was holding and re-hash a new one. And that I have done several times over.

It also turns out that my soul/universe/god/me was giving me a big nudge to make a different choice and usher (push) me into the world of woo and all that comes with it.  

Moving from a logical material liner world of order to a world of energy, abstract realms and self-enquiry was quite a challenge at first.  But deep down I knew this holistic ballistic way of looking at life was what was missing in my world. It has been a wild and crazy adventure of deep healing, joyful expansions, speaking to things I can’t see and all other weird experiences in between to reconnect to the truth of who I be. Learning to land back down to earth and integrate all of that with the world we live in today has been my calling.

The journey never ends. Forever seeking to expand ones consciousness and to realise that I/WE already AM/ARE. Freedom comes when we realise we already are. Like many other healers, coaches, therapists, meditators and cosmic bunnies out there - I have received many life learnings, tools and expansive experiences that light my life up and a whole heap of experiences that did not light up my world. We all have some level and form of childhood trauma that impacts the way we adult in the world.

The great news is that there are many healing practices out there and it seems the collective are ready for that healing, or at least be okay to have a look and talk about it.

Healing for me is not about fixing things.

​Healing for me is being the space of no judgement so that people have more ease with the choices they have made in the past and be able to address the difficult and shadowy aspects of their life; changing the unconscious to the conscious. 

Shedding light onto the matter.  That's where the magic is for me.

Light Your Life
That brings me to the here and now.

All the tools, trainings, certifications, initiations, studies, weirdiverse experiences and reconnections to me, my ancestors and lineage to source I have tapped into so far, I can access and bring that forth to meet you in the moment that is ripe for you, me and we.

Like a spark of light igniting the spark in you

Joyous choice and exploring possibilities are at the very heart of what I do and can bring these to whatever area of your life you desire. In what ways can I work with you that invites lightness into your next inspired step?

Whether that be using sound vibrations to assist you back to your coherent resonance; or self mastery sessions releasing limiting patterns from your world or voice alchemy classes to transform how you show up in the world. What contribution can I be to the change and choice you would like to see you your world? Are you ready to ignite your light within?
Yee Ley xx

About
Kia ora and welcome to Light your Life! To this space, place and reality. This is part of my world. I am the explorer of consciousness of all there is.  

Evolving
This online portal has been through many different forms as I evolve and expand my inner world, so does my outer world and offerings.

A few of you who have been following my journey from the start may have noticed many changes, re-brands and refinements and rebirths of my offerings over the years.  Not only going back to my Chinese name Yee Ley early this year in 2017 after being called Lily my entire life, changes have been gently (edit: radically) taking place with my website, my belief systems, where I live, my partners, my circle of friends, goodness, even my wardrobe has had a major make-over!!  

Conscious beginnings
It was in 2011 that I came out of the so called 'spiritual' closet with the birth of the 'Lil-star' brand offering Reiki sessions and classes with the tag line flavour of that moment 'Helping you Find your Inner Peace'.  This was me in London; back then a sought after IT Business Analyst who was ready for the next exciting adventure. I had many clients come see me at my tiny home London clinic where I also held meditation classes whilst still holding down the 'office job' for 3-days a week.  It was fun to have the variety as I also dabbled in photography and played touch-rugby in the local area. I also hosted and collaborated with a few other people in the healing sphere too - a theme which seems to have carried through to my work today.

In the background I indulged in spiritual classes and workshops with the desire to be a clearer and better version of myself. A new healing theme emerged around freeing my inner-voice and so sound came into my life in a BIG way.

'Continual refinement of the self' is one way to look at life and is what I subscribe to. In 2013 my inner-compass guided me to an around the world adventure, what some call a soul-retrieval quest as I visited certain places and spaces to help me remember and receive and perceive more of me.  I was told I was 'planting many seeds of light' around the globe.  I thought I was learning about organic farming & sustainable living to be honest as my way of moving out of the mortgage loop. But nonetheless it was a great adventure of fun and laughter for sure, whether I was planting seeds of light or not, I received more of who I be for sure and still continue allow myself to do so today.

The move to NZ
After my year long travel it was clear that New Zealand was to be my new home. It was calling me to come over and so I made the move to the land of the long white cloud in 2014. Being welcomed with opened arms the move to New Zealand was easy. Saying goodbye to my friends was not so easy as I was saying goodbye to a my old life in many ways. But thanks to the internet, I am able to stay connected to loved ones.

The travel experience and move of homes prompted a re-brand of my offerings. I wanted to integrate all that I had explored and my inner-voice work was also getting stronger. 

What if everything and anything already exists and it's just up to us to just choose it? ​

The Lil-star brand changed with a new tag line flavour of 'Exploring the infinite ways of being and creating you'.  Bit of a mouth full! But that's what I began to realise was my theme of my life. Well it can be for everyone else. Explore life. Life is there to explore. We are everything, not any ONE thing!  I perceived the notion 'we are infinite beings' on a whole new level.  It finally dawned on me that What if everything and anything ALREADY exists and it's just up to us to choose it? 

What is it we are all choosing and is it working for us?  How about that? So there's a lot to explore my friends!!!

Letting go of Lily and Lil*star
As the traveller and explorer of all there is, you get used to packing up, setting up, packing down, letting go and saying a lot of goodbyes, shedding a lot of tears as well as welcoming many new hello's and belly laughters on all levels. Letting go included dear friends, to belief systems and self created identities one of which was Lily.

Lily is who I have been called since birth for 41 years, but ironically it's not on my birth certificate. Yee Ley Lau is my birth name and no-one has ever called me by that name until now (2017). My parents called me Lily as a way to help integrate into UK life and it was a Chinese trend to have an 'English' name.  So long story short a French gypsy traveller had a look at my palm and ran some numbers through my name, he said Yee Ley was more appropriate for my life path as it held the vibration of 'awakening'.  Yeah I'll take that!  So ta dah....in early 2017 I made the transition from Lily to Yee Ley! Then oh my, everything in my life re-shuffled to align with that vibration.

Lil*star did not make sense anymore as that was a play on the name Lily. So here we go again with another re-brand and a re-shuffle of my offerings. Yee Ley Lau with Light Your Life.  

Light Your Life
One of the learnings of the explorer is to travel light. Taking unnecessary items with you physically and metaphorically is just well, too darn difficult, inconvenient and heavy! Always seeking the lighter path, the lighter choice is what I have been learning to do and getting better at and I'd like to share those tools with you.  I'm liking making choices that are fun, light and easy. And there are so many ways to do and be that light.

Hence 'Light Your Life' - is the flavour for now.  What can you do or be that lights your life? 

Light can be interpreted in so many ways from the physical sensations to bringing in more pure divine light into your life and yourselves and your cells.

Light is a form of energy
Light is both obvious and mysterious 
Light can make things visible
Light can illuminate, and ignite
What else?
What ways can you lighten your own life? 

What to expect and not?
So with all of the above, I have to tell you now that being an explorer means that I travel here, there and anywhere in any given moment in all senses of the world. I've been told that I'm in my Aquarian phase of life after being in 30 years of practical grounding analytical Capricorn.  This new phase which apparently I've been in for 10 years already, brings a theme of being fluid and going with the flow and bringing about a new ways of living and being that contributes and uplifts universal consciousness. 

If you are looking for regular classes at the same location, and monthly top 5 life hack blogs, and multi-tiered training workshops, that's not me anymore. 

I ride on the infinite waves of consciousness exploring itself and create expressions when the moment is ripe.   I rendezvous with who is ready to meet me there. So what to expect with Light Your Life are moments created for you to explore more of who you be.  I facilitate the space of possibilities, a place for you to dare yourself to go beyond what you know and bring through your potent capacities and creative expressions without judgement.

No fancy dancy certificates to give out, no hierarchy levels of ability to achieve, no heady analytical stuff.

Just the space
To explore
And In joy
All there is

That YOU ARE.

Where can you find me?
Well, Facebook, online, this web space, on the phone, popping up in different locations around New Zealand.
Online sessions (i.e. FB, phone, zoom, Skype). In person sessions will vary depending on where I travel to.  Also the magical mystical wonders of the Universe will ensure a rendezvous will happen when the moment is ripe in response to your ASK that you have been putting out.

With joy, love and light

Yee Ley xx